Posted November 19, 2007 @ 08:37
Today went like any other day but tonight will be different. Super-hubby is away and you know what that means...I get the whole KING size bed to myself...woohoo!
I've actually done a bit of Christmas shopping and I am very much in the Christmas spirit this year. It's been a couple of years since I've really been in the Christmas mood. I can't wait. Next Sunday I am putting up the tree and then I have the whole week off.
VACATION! YES!
My Mom is coming down for a few days. I'm pretty excited about that. I'm so glad we have the wonderful relationship we have now. I always wanted to be close to her but it took a lot of years to get there. It took time for her to understand me and same with me for her. There were some resentments on my side that I finally understand. Strange how we learn more as we grow up, huh? Maybe having children as taught me not to judge so harshly. Plus the fact that she is now my number one cheerleader help out too.
Tomorrow we are going to be dog sitting our oldest girl's dog while she is away for 4 days. He's so cute. I'll take some pics and post them. He's just a pup. The kids are really excited about him coming to stay. I hope I'm up to it. Puppies are like babies....ug...hope I get sleep...:)
So, that's it for the exciting news around here. Hope you all have a great night!
Take care ~hugs
I've actually done a bit of Christmas shopping and I am very much in the Christmas spirit this year. It's been a couple of years since I've really been in the Christmas mood. I can't wait. Next Sunday I am putting up the tree and then I have the whole week off.
VACATION! YES!
My Mom is coming down for a few days. I'm pretty excited about that. I'm so glad we have the wonderful relationship we have now. I always wanted to be close to her but it took a lot of years to get there. It took time for her to understand me and same with me for her. There were some resentments on my side that I finally understand. Strange how we learn more as we grow up, huh? Maybe having children as taught me not to judge so harshly. Plus the fact that she is now my number one cheerleader help out too.
Tomorrow we are going to be dog sitting our oldest girl's dog while she is away for 4 days. He's so cute. I'll take some pics and post them. He's just a pup. The kids are really excited about him coming to stay. I hope I'm up to it. Puppies are like babies....ug...hope I get sleep...:)
So, that's it for the exciting news around here. Hope you all have a great night!
Take care ~hugs
Posted October 17, 2007 @ 06:00
Some days I wish I had more hours in the day and then others I just want to end.
I seriously feel I won't get a thing done even if I had a month of Sundays. The last two weeks has been a harsh reality check.
Being that I have never ever been so involved with death, planning a funeral, grief and the aftermath I have no idea what the hell is going on. It seems as though super-hubby's family has fallen apart since his mother's passing. I am just standing aside watching as he gets hurt more and more. He has been left out of a lot of things and his Dad will not accept his help. We did help with the planning of the funeral but after that we were pushed aside. And our children as well. I don't understand. It's like she was the glue holding us all together. There have been things said and done that have hurt our children immensely. I don't know if I am supposed to speak up or sit quietly by or wait until super-hubby explodes because he has almost reached his limit. What go I do? Or say? I have been soothing our kids but there's a hurt there that they don't understand. They've been pushed aside.
This is a morose post, I know, but I need someone to help me understand because I can't stand by and watch my family get hurt anymore. I want to shake my father in law. I want to tell our niece off. I'm sick of being treated as the "black sheep family" when we did nothing wrong. When we go out there we feel unwelcome. When super-hubby asked about the will (not because he wants anything but because he knows the kids were left things from Grandma) we are told he can't find it. And super-hubby knows it's a lie. Wth?
Is there a way to fix this? Can somebody help me on this?
Sorry for the non-cheery post. Tomorrow's will be better. Thanks for letting me vent.
Have a good night everyone. Take care ~hugs~
I seriously feel I won't get a thing done even if I had a month of Sundays. The last two weeks has been a harsh reality check.
Being that I have never ever been so involved with death, planning a funeral, grief and the aftermath I have no idea what the hell is going on. It seems as though super-hubby's family has fallen apart since his mother's passing. I am just standing aside watching as he gets hurt more and more. He has been left out of a lot of things and his Dad will not accept his help. We did help with the planning of the funeral but after that we were pushed aside. And our children as well. I don't understand. It's like she was the glue holding us all together. There have been things said and done that have hurt our children immensely. I don't know if I am supposed to speak up or sit quietly by or wait until super-hubby explodes because he has almost reached his limit. What go I do? Or say? I have been soothing our kids but there's a hurt there that they don't understand. They've been pushed aside.
This is a morose post, I know, but I need someone to help me understand because I can't stand by and watch my family get hurt anymore. I want to shake my father in law. I want to tell our niece off. I'm sick of being treated as the "black sheep family" when we did nothing wrong. When we go out there we feel unwelcome. When super-hubby asked about the will (not because he wants anything but because he knows the kids were left things from Grandma) we are told he can't find it. And super-hubby knows it's a lie. Wth?
Is there a way to fix this? Can somebody help me on this?
Sorry for the non-cheery post. Tomorrow's will be better. Thanks for letting me vent.
Have a good night everyone. Take care ~hugs~
Posted September 27, 2007 @ 08:34
I am such a nerd. I spent the last ten minutes of CSI yelling at the tv for someone to help Sara. Yeesh. I am addicted.
Today was much better then yesterday...whew. I'm really glad about that too.
For those Tick Tock fans I will be posting up the final few installments starting on Monday. I really hope you enjoy it. I don't want to disappoint. Plus, if you all like it I will be sending it out to try and get it published. Hope it goes well.
Anyways, I'm really tired tonight because I was up with the birds this morning. So I am headed off to bed. Hope you all have a great night! Take care~hugs~
Today was much better then yesterday...whew. I'm really glad about that too.
For those Tick Tock fans I will be posting up the final few installments starting on Monday. I really hope you enjoy it. I don't want to disappoint. Plus, if you all like it I will be sending it out to try and get it published. Hope it goes well.
Anyways, I'm really tired tonight because I was up with the birds this morning. So I am headed off to bed. Hope you all have a great night! Take care~hugs~
Posted September 26, 2007 @ 08:41
Well, tonight was a treat and a half. Since I started taking the meds again I've been even keel and feeling great. My temper has been in check too.
Tonight, though, I swear I wanted to run away. I've discussed before about my family and how we are "blended". For those who don't know we have his, mine and ours. BUT always, always I have said my step children may not have been borne by but they are mine. I've raised them since they were 2 and 3 right along with mine who were 1 and 3 when we first began our journey. And then we have the youngest who is ours together and there you have out blended family.
Tonight, my son (I will do this in mine and step just so you understand what I'm saying) told my stepson that he is not "blood" to his sister he is a step. Well, holy hell, it all broke loose. Yelling, swearing and carrying on. My stepson ended up sobbing in his room. My big tough 16 years crying his eyes out.
For those of you who may not know, even thought he is my stepson he is mine in all senses of the word. His mother has had nothing to do with him in over three years. She hates him. Before when he did visit her she called him names, made fun of him and turned her side of the family against him. She is not a mother. She is a egg donor and incubator. I have raised him since he was two. My stepson plans on having her parental rights stripped when he is 18 and I will then adopt him. All his idea.
So when this went down tonight he was hurt to the core. He feels as if there is no real strength in the word "blood" "step" or "half". They are all brothers and sisters and that is it. And when my son said that to him he felt as though he's not really anything here. Just a "step".
I have spent 14 years reassuring this child of his place in our family. And that really there is no such this as half step or blood. It's words, for God sakes. Tonight by two words all my hard work was almost ruined.
BUT my son didn't mean it the way it came out of his mouth. He tried to explain what he meant and it took me 15 minutes to understand. Yeesh. I told him to start thinking before he speaks.
It ended up with both boys in tears and my son apologized.
When will this crap ever end? I am very tired of this and seriously 14 years is enough.
I am beat and just writing this has drained me more...phew.
Have a great night and take care ~hugs~
Tonight, though, I swear I wanted to run away. I've discussed before about my family and how we are "blended". For those who don't know we have his, mine and ours. BUT always, always I have said my step children may not have been borne by but they are mine. I've raised them since they were 2 and 3 right along with mine who were 1 and 3 when we first began our journey. And then we have the youngest who is ours together and there you have out blended family.
Tonight, my son (I will do this in mine and step just so you understand what I'm saying) told my stepson that he is not "blood" to his sister he is a step. Well, holy hell, it all broke loose. Yelling, swearing and carrying on. My stepson ended up sobbing in his room. My big tough 16 years crying his eyes out.
For those of you who may not know, even thought he is my stepson he is mine in all senses of the word. His mother has had nothing to do with him in over three years. She hates him. Before when he did visit her she called him names, made fun of him and turned her side of the family against him. She is not a mother. She is a egg donor and incubator. I have raised him since he was two. My stepson plans on having her parental rights stripped when he is 18 and I will then adopt him. All his idea.
So when this went down tonight he was hurt to the core. He feels as if there is no real strength in the word "blood" "step" or "half". They are all brothers and sisters and that is it. And when my son said that to him he felt as though he's not really anything here. Just a "step".
I have spent 14 years reassuring this child of his place in our family. And that really there is no such this as half step or blood. It's words, for God sakes. Tonight by two words all my hard work was almost ruined.
BUT my son didn't mean it the way it came out of his mouth. He tried to explain what he meant and it took me 15 minutes to understand. Yeesh. I told him to start thinking before he speaks.
It ended up with both boys in tears and my son apologized.
When will this crap ever end? I am very tired of this and seriously 14 years is enough.
I am beat and just writing this has drained me more...phew.
Have a great night and take care ~hugs~
Posted September 25, 2007 @ 06:20
Read all the way down, you might discover something new!!!
Even if you dont believe these are some great rules to live by!!!
ONE.
Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
TWO.
Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.
THREE.
Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.
FOUR.
When you say, "I love you," mean it.
FIVE.
When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.
SIX.
Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
SEVEN.
Believe in love at first sight.
EIGHT.
Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.
NINE.
Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.
TEN.
In disagreements, fight fairly. Please No name calling.
ELEVEN.
Don't judge people by their relatives.
TWELVE.
Talk slowly but think quickly.
THIRTEEN.
When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"
FOURTEEN.
Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
FIFTEEN.
Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.
SIXTEEN.
When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
SEVENTEEN.
Remember the three R's:
Respect for self;
Respect for others;
Responsibility for all your actions.
EIGHTEEN.
Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
NINETEEN.
When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
TWENTY.
Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.
TWENTY-ONE.
Spend some time alone.
I read these and I thought it was something nice to share with you all. The end of my cold came strong and hard and I was in bed pretty much the whole weekend but I do feel better now. I hope this is it for colds for me for a while.
I've been helping kaityy explore the huge world of colleges and universities. I can't believe that this time next year she'll be gone. It's scary for me. I'm such a worry wort. I know she has to spread her wings and fly but it's hard for me. This is my baby, my first born. I try not to think of it and enjoy the time I have with her. But sometimes I look at her and see my baby. I wish I had a little book that told me how to deal with this. ~sigh~
Anyways, it's premiere week here and I want to go see everyone before Criminal Minds starts. Have a great night! ~hugs~
I read these and I thought it was something nice to share with you all. The end of my cold came strong and hard and I was in bed pretty much the whole weekend but I do feel better now. I hope this is it for colds for me for a while.
I've been helping kaityy explore the huge world of colleges and universities. I can't believe that this time next year she'll be gone. It's scary for me. I'm such a worry wort. I know she has to spread her wings and fly but it's hard for me. This is my baby, my first born. I try not to think of it and enjoy the time I have with her. But sometimes I look at her and see my baby. I wish I had a little book that told me how to deal with this. ~sigh~
Anyways, it's premiere week here and I want to go see everyone before Criminal Minds starts. Have a great night! ~hugs~
Posted September 20, 2007 @ 06:47
I don't know if it's my connection or if it's the site but everything is moving slow slow slow. So I don't know if I'll be able to get around and see everyone or even comment back to anyone from here.
I just wanted to say HI to everyone and let you know that I may not be around tomorrow because we have a huge night planned. But I will be around on Saturday.
Work was work today and actually there were some very grumpy people. Almost put me in a mood. And damn was it hot. I swear I was melting.
I am exhausted since I've been on the go since 7am this morning but I'm going to see if I can at least make a few visits.
Hope you all have a great night and great tomorrow! Take care ~hugs~
I just wanted to say HI to everyone and let you know that I may not be around tomorrow because we have a huge night planned. But I will be around on Saturday.
Work was work today and actually there were some very grumpy people. Almost put me in a mood. And damn was it hot. I swear I was melting.
I am exhausted since I've been on the go since 7am this morning but I'm going to see if I can at least make a few visits.
Hope you all have a great night and great tomorrow! Take care ~hugs~
Posted September 19, 2007 @ 09:46
I did some changes around here and I'm really beginning to love it. I am HOME!! YAY!
I need to thank Kelly for her awesome tutorials. Without her I'd be drab...
But I see I need to change the colors in my shoutbox.
Gonna do that and head to bed. Take care everyone! ~hugs~
I need to thank Kelly for her awesome tutorials. Without her I'd be drab...
But I see I need to change the colors in my shoutbox.
Gonna do that and head to bed. Take care everyone! ~hugs~
Posted September 19, 2007 @ 07:13
Well here I am. I made it! And actually I love this site. Much better than WordPress, it wasn't very user friendly I thought. Anyways, give me a few days and I'm doing some renos here to make this my place...:)
Work was very very hot and long today and I'm still feeling under the weather so this may be short and sweet. I keep saying I'm going to get up in the am early and come online but somehow my body needs to sleep until 10 am. Of course when I was on vacation guess what time I was up? 8 am. Nice, huh? I think it's because of my cold that I need the extra sleep and with the weather changing so much who knows if it'll ever go away.
Want to know how very boring my life is? I spent a half an hour writing down all the season premieres I must see next week. I will be a couch potato from Sunday night to Friday night. I.am.so.lame.
Well, I am going in search of my friends and I am going to see if I can get a little bit of changes to happen here.
Have a great night all ~hugs~
Work was very very hot and long today and I'm still feeling under the weather so this may be short and sweet. I keep saying I'm going to get up in the am early and come online but somehow my body needs to sleep until 10 am. Of course when I was on vacation guess what time I was up? 8 am. Nice, huh? I think it's because of my cold that I need the extra sleep and with the weather changing so much who knows if it'll ever go away.
Want to know how very boring my life is? I spent a half an hour writing down all the season premieres I must see next week. I will be a couch potato from Sunday night to Friday night. I.am.so.lame.
Well, I am going in search of my friends and I am going to see if I can get a little bit of changes to happen here.
Have a great night all ~hugs~
